fauxcobalt

this livejournal is just done because too many people read it, and i'd rather not make the entries private, so i'm going to move on to another one. talk to me if you want the new name, my sn is "oder etwas". merry christmas everyone!

for some reason i guess boredom today i went to this person's livejournal i used to be friends with and it's weird because she grew up. also i got this big wave of self-disgust because for some retarded reason after she stopped talking to me i sent her this really pathetic letter (yes, snail mail style, even more embarrassing) detailing why she should be my friend, which of course she didn't respond to. i mean god i would get so creeped out if someone did that to me. basically i wish i could apologize to her for being such a weird creep but then that in itself would be way overstepping boundaries, and i don't think we'd get along now anyways, i just hope that letter got lost in the mail or something so i don't feel so pathetic whenever i'm reminded of it.

anyway, i get so weirded out now when i think about inver grove heights. like simley? the last time i drove by it was like 2 months ago, and it felt like i'd never set foot in it before. the only thing good about inver grove heights is sam vongs. actually i think when i get money i'm totally going to go there and pig out on cream cheese puffs. igh just feels like such a blip on the map, and it's weird to think that some people have their lives centered around it. like drinking bacardi razz in their friends' basements and so and so making out with their ex boyfriend and talking about it in 3rd hour the next day.

right now i am living in a cute little three-bedroom house in saint paul with a tiny christmas tree lighting up my tiny room. i have a fuzzy cat purring on the arm of the couch and my boyfriend has dozed off and wrapped himself around me and is breathing warm air onto my stomach. i guess that doesn't sound like much but it all makes me pretty happy.

finally getting over this horrible plaguing cold. still coughing every 2 seconds and blowing my nose every ten. i go through a box of kleenex a day.

did i tell anyone i got a corolla?? because i did and it's cute and black and gets 30 miles to the gallon hallelujah.

um i got a second job at the oasis market about 2 blocks up from where i live. should be overwhelmingly easy and boring but luckily one works alone since it's such a small store. i hate managers.

i got a christmas tree so i took a picture of the tree


but then i couldn't stop taking pictures so here's my cat


and here's me and james, who i so rudely woke up, he is living here now

man 5 hours of sleep in the past two days NO THANK YOU

i made 30 dollars from the internet, thank you internet, thank you 30 dollars

ugh, deathly hung over, ugh, just took an unmarked pill, thinking about moving to england instead of new york, ugh

am a bigger fan of dogs when drunk

i really really officially hate my life

today and yesterday i didn't go outside until it was dark, people need to stop doing heroin, and the law and order theme is my new ringtone.

happy thanksgiving

things are okay, the guy that broke my bowl finally brought me another one last night, i named it something really stupid but i can't remember it because i had eaten some e like an hour beforehand.

now there's like 30 people upstairs drinking coors light and playing the eagles. i don't want them to come downstairs. they already fucking spilled beer on my cat.

now i have some money, i forgot that my grandparents send a monthly 50 dollar check. i guess i haven't said that i live in highland park now. in an unfinished basement, i tried to make a corner look like a room. when i find my camera i'll post a picture MAYBE. here's a picture anyway of me with a big bag of donuts from the dumpster at superamerica. a new low.



i had dinner with my grandma tonight and she bought me a lot of food. nice. a lot of people worship her, it's weird. she gets 9300 hits on a google. here's one of the webpages that came up, i guess she's a feminist. http://www.religion-online.org/showarticle.asp?title=2586

so during april and may i guess i'm going to europe. i don't really know what i'm going to do there, probably a lot of drugs and also dance at cheesy euro clubs. ok i'm gonna go do nothing bye.

i'm totally out of money and it's really gay. i hocked like 30 books and a couple movies and it only fetched me 7 bucks. no one calls me anymore. i'll just try to get rid of some cds now i guess.

i can't believe i just posted this ad

http://minneapolis.craigslist.org/pet/236007692.html

really : ( today

i really fucking hate this place. last night i went to some college parties where they were playing fucking beer pong. all the girls there were dressed hella skanky and carrying around plastic cups full of keg beer. i was all coked out with a gary numan shirt drinking white zinfandel from a wineglass. i don't know if i am ever going to really fit in anywhere.

thursday night i decided that i don't care about my future so this weekend i didn't go home and got laid and did a bunch of blow. the buick got towed but the fancy part is i don't really care! my parents are going to buy me my own car pretty soon here and once they do i think i'm going to move out because my teenage crisis won't really work while i'm living at home.

fuckin yay

I just basically spent like two and a half weeks in the psych ward and oh my god I am so run-down right now. I'm also moving to New York. Minnesota decidedly sucks balls.

it took me 18 days to totally fuck THAT up

i would be okay except for this hat i'm wearing is making me really sad.